dramas of my life

“Job, wag kang papatol sa tambay ha!”Those were the words of my dearest hubby while talking to my tummy.

I can’t help but laugh. Well, for starters ngaun pa lang nagworry na ang aking asawa with regards to our princess.

Hay naku.

JOB is being malikot na this past few days. All the time moving around my tummy. I always talk to her. Sana maaga syang lumabas.

And syempre healthy ang maganda. And syempre mamana nya ung eyes ni Mommy.

35.So, one more week and I am on the 9th month.

Meaning any time soon I am going to deliver JOB. And hopefully, fingers crossed it will be on the 2nd week of July before my OB fly off to the US.

I want to deliver early than my supposedly delivery date because, one I wanted to see her na. Two, just in case, fingers crossed again, hubby will have more time with her.

Yes, that thing with Hubby is still unsettled.

That is what I am feeling right now.And uneasy. I do not know how I can overcome such.

The more I come near my delivery date, the more I grow impatient and afraid. Impatient because I wanted to see JOB already and afraid because I really do not know what will happen.

I have this fear that I might die the moment I gave birth to JOB. Of course, I don’t want that to happen thats why I am obedient following the instruction of my rheuma and ob. I also am afraid that my lupus might complicate JOB’s birth.

I phoned my OB yesterday.Because the result for my urine culture will be out that day.

And true enough the result was there.

I called and fortunately she generously accomodated me.

She told me that most likely UTI is the reason

Why JOB is small.

So she told me to take some antibiotics.

So now, here are the list of medicine I am taking.

Morning

Calvit
Prednisone 5 mg
Aspilet
Iberet
Aminovita
Macrodantin

Lunch

Macrodantin

Dinner

MAcrodantin
Calvit

In the past, I sometimes skip drinking my meds.

Over the weekend I started preparing JOB’s cloth.Yes, all the stuff that my sister gave me and the one we bought.I put all the clothes in our washing machine, hoping that its only one batch.

I was wrong.

The washing machine cannot spin necause of the heavy load.

So I have to split the cloths into batches.

Lampin pa lang occupied na ung washing machine.

Then, the clothes pa.

When its time to hang the clothes grabe, it was tiring.

Pero nakakatuwa.

Imagine so little clothes hanging inside the house.

June 1.Have been the worst day of my pregnant life.

WE woke at around 10am.

Rush to the hospital where Dr. I has a clinic.

Later, found out that he changed his sched.

Shucks!

Went to the next hospital.

For an appointment with OB.

And yes I have confirmed that the results are really bad.

Both my urinalysis and CBC.

Which affected the growth of JOB.

OB was not happy with the result.

She asked me to have a URINE CULTURE.

The results will be out within 3 days.

After almost seven years of working.I am finally taking a vacation with pay.Not because I am sick and cannot work.

But because I would try a different career - MOTHERHOOD.

I am excited.

You see I started working here at the office

Even before I graduated.

I was not able to savor the vacation after college.

When I did work professionally I was not given the pleasure

Of long vacation.

Up to the point that i needed to rest because of LUPUS.

When I started to recover, check ups are the only days I cannot report to work.

One month to go.And the little one will be coming out.We cant wait.

Our amusement every night is her movement in my tummy.

And every movement is a joy to us.

And I hope and pray that she turn out normal and healthy.

That she will not be affected by any medicine I have taken.

I know she feels how much everybody is anticipating her arrival

And how much she is love.

Daddy and Mommy have started preparing.

Even Tita Ya have given the clothes of Ate Aish for her.

In one of my previous entry I said that I would like to blog about my prednisone free days.
YEs. You heard it right, there are days that I am no longer taking prednisone. This is after so many years of being prednisone dependent.

Prednisone is all I take to control my lupus. Sometimes also plaquenil but most of the times pred.
Before, life is difficult without pred. Once I lower the dosage or wont take pred my lupus will go haywire. In fact there was a time in my life i stop taking pred abruptly I was sent to the hospital and was hospitalized for 6 days. And my first doctor told me that I would be pred dependent for life. And I believe her.

I did not exactly anticipated that it could be like this.That there are really movements in my tummy. Sounds in my stomach as if I am hungry. Yet i know I was not hungry. But rather there is a little body inside. Moving.

Everytime I feel JOB kick or mover I am happy. It really makes my day. And I can even assume a certain personality of JOB through her movements.