dramas of my life

One of the problem I have encountered when I had LUPUS is that my feet became choosy on the footwear I am wearing.

I cannot wear high heeled shoes like before. And then I quickly got foot aches if i wear the wrong shoes. There was a time when all i can wear is slippers. Then I got better, I can wear rubber shoes. Even when I report for work.

And then I was able to find a good and soft shoes. But those have been ruined by time and countless walks. Now, that I am in remission I can afford to wear some shoes.

As I have said in my previous post I am searching for bloggers who are lupie just like me, I stumbled upon justordinary’s blog. Although she is still waiting for her right diagnosis, which I hope would come sooner.

When I visited her blog I’ve look on her link to see some title which would somehow raise my curiosity and lead me to read his/her blog. Although if I have time I surely love to blog hop.

I have been searching around the net of people like me who have LUPUS. And I never thought that there are a lot of them who have blogs  also.

Although not all have LUPUS. Some of them are yet to be diagnosed with LUPUS and some have the same symptoms as LUPUS.

Now, in my effort to help in my small way those who are somehow on their lowest point because of their illness I started leaving comments on their blog although at first I am a bit shy. So I shed that shyness away and hopefully they would give me the chance to know them.

This was taken from http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com.The Spoon Theory

For the past three weeks or so, I am not feeling well. I am not panicky though because I knew I am just under the change of weather condition.But man, last week I was like a dog barking because of my cough. I wanted to rest but I just can’t. Rest eludes me sometimes. I know that the cough and cold would not go unless I rest and I sleep early. Now, my sleeping time is 11 pm. Culprit: the TV and the DVD which is in our room. Yes. It just suits its pwesto and besides our sala is not yet ok. May kalat pa and no sofa as of the moment.And besides sleeping late, when i am at the house I cannot help myself from cleaning or doing the laundry. I just wanted white tiles in the bathroom and kitchen. And I don’t want to see dirty clothes hanging around or in the hamper. And I wanted to iron all our clothes so that we can wear what we want. But sometimes, time is not enough. Sometimes I end up curling in bed because I am tired or I feel that my body has gone over its limit.
Well, nde na matigas ang ulo ko ngayon. If I know I needed to rest, I will. No matter what. Even if I am in the middle of something. Because as Jason Bourne would say ‘rest is a weapon’. I am just glad that I can do all household chores like a normal being. Thank God! I am still amazed that after three years I am almost back to normal programming =).

One of my most treasured desire. Ours. Hubby and I.Even if Dr. I have warned me that getting preggy is RISKY and COSTLY.

RISKY because of my condition. The diseases I am plagued. LUPUS, PULMONARY EMBOLISM and ENDOMETRIA. Risky because coumadin has 100% side effect to the baby. Unexpected pregnancy might create abnormalities to the unborn. I should be off coumadin for six months before conceiving. And if I conceived and its labor time, a blood clot might reoccur. Which can lead to paralysis or worst death. Both to the mother and unborn.

My biggest problem right now is WEIGHT GAIN.

The last time I weight I gain 3 kilos. Would you believe that? And I am going to the gym pa nyan ha.
I dont know how to resolve this issue. I already asked Dr. I what I am going to do and he told me that its all in my hand. Ibig sabihin…DISIPLINA.

But I cannot control myself from eating. I love chocolate and I love to drink softdrinks. Two things that attributes to my weight gain.

It’s nearing the end of October and a few months 2005 will be over. And i am thankful that I am feeling ok right now.
My meds now is pred, plaquenil and coumadin. although, i dont religiously drink coumadin because of the health hazard just in case i get pregnant (accidentally!).There are two things i am addicted to now. Which I think is a good addiction. Good to my health and my lupus. Two things : GYM and SAUNA.

I think it is my luckiest and healthiest year so far after i have been diagnosed with LUPUS.

I am counting the days till 2005 is over and I could say i am successful in battling lupus.

But what is the difference of this year to my previous year? This year i am taking LACTOVITALLE.

I have snatched some entries from my 1st blogs. Entries which were written in random and are talking about my lupus.

This one was posted in my blog, January 3. When I was feeling down because something had slipped my hand. Something that I have long for for a long time.