Just got home a few hours ago. Yeah, we went to Pampanga today. The trip was not at all tiring because we rented a van. But what really is tiring is keeping up with Anevay as she run after the ducks, roam around the restaurants (Fisherman’s grill for lunch and Razon’s for merienda), and play with Luis, Buma and Aish. The four of them are a handful. I wonder what if the four kids are all your kids. Luis is 10, Buma is 5, Aish is 4 and Anevay is one. Whaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
Our relatives from Pampanga are all happy to see us. Especially since its Anevay’s first time to set put in my hometown. And guess what ? All of them declared that Anevay is a carbon copy of mine. She just looks like me daw when I was just her age. I was happy and sad at the same time. Happy because of their comment, sad because I will be a lot happier if Papa and Mommy were the one to tell me that 
I was already a little bit emotional in the morning just before the trip. Maybe because I remember all the things that have happen in the past. And it breaks my heart, hearing my tita, my mommy’s elder sister say that Papa and Mommy would be very happy if only there are still alive.
I know it has been 12 years already but here I am crying again. Its really painful when you see the joy of your relatives seeing your baby but all you wanted is for your parents to be there to share your joy with your daughter.
Hay!
Its been a happy day really. Kaya lang it made me realized things.
One is, I still wish that Papa and Mommy are still here with us. I bet they would dot on my daughter as well as Luis, Buma and Aish. But somehow, I am content that Mommy’s two sister and brother were still able to see Anevay and offer comments that she really looks like me when I was her age.
Two, being a single mom, either because your unwed or widowed early or you husband is working abroad, is no joke. I just realized the lost today. When my sister have my brother in law to help take care of Aish and my sister in law have my brother to help take care of Luis and Buma. While me, I only have myself. Although all of them were keen on giving me breaks in looking after Anevay. Pero iba pa rin eh.
Oh men! What a way to end my week!
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