Going away
I never imagine that it could be this difficult. Mahal have left the Philippines and is now working in Kuwait. Far from me and anevay.
It tears me apart seeing my daughter and knowing that she will have to go on with some part of her life without her daddy. But it has to be this way. We chose this, so with God’s help will have to make it through.
Week that was
Oct 22
Only three of us in the house. Nanay went home yesterday. And this was the first time we attended the mass as family. We went to St. Paul of the Cross in SSS so that we can be together with Kuya’s family. Julius also went over to give the maleta that Mahal is going to used. And baka daw he might not be able to say goodbye daw to Joseph because he have work/classes to attend.
Oct 23
Still the three of us. Andun ung maleta pero parang ayokong lagyan ng gamit. IT was also Anevay’s 3rd month kaya I took a leave from work. I also wanted to be with Mahal. Its our last time together and matatagalan bago kami magsama uli. Nung gabi I was having a headache and Mahal also. And Anevay did not want to go to sleep. We were surprised to see that we have visitors. Tatay, Nanay, Jay, Tita Minda and two of her daughter were there. Kaya we were able to sleep the whole night kasi si Nanay ang katabi ni Anevay.
Oct 24
Holiday. Because we have the money already, Mahal and I decided to go to Manila. Nanay was kind enough to allow me to go with Joseph and she would be the bantay of Anevay. We went to Manila then to Makati then back to Manila and to Marikina. Was able to buy Mahal’s coat and tie, pants, a green lantern tshirt etc. We were also in a hurry because my sister and her husband were already in Kuya’s house and waiting for us.
Oct 25
Wednesday. did not report for work for obvious reasons. House is still crowded and we went to OLAP, chinatrust and Robinsons. Inayos ko na ung bagahe ni Mahal. I did not feel a twinge of sadness. I am not sure why.
Oct 26
The day. Did not report for work again. Mahal woke up early, attended the mass. I stayed at our room and nakahiga lang. I started to cry. Ngaun ramdam ko na that things would be a lot different. Afterlunch punta kami EPCIB pero nde pa rin nakaactivate ung OWWA card ni Mahal. At around 4 o clock ayun na I started crying. I cannot help myself. I would only be and Anevay. The man that have been with me for five years will be leaving me behind. He cried also. I was not surprised. Mababaw luha ng mahal ko. We stop crying. Time to go. Nakalabas sya ng bahay ng nde umiyak. Anevay who was sleeping suddenly was awake. Tapos bumalik si mahal because may nakalimutan sya. When we was on his way out nakita nyang nakatingin si Anevay sa kanya that was the time na ayun umiyak na sya. God! That scene really touches my heart until now.
Oct 27
First day without Mahal. Went to the office to cure the longing. But I was wrong. The office reminds me of him.
Tomorrow, will be three weeks from that day. It seems like eternity.
Naninibago pa rin ako. When I go home, travel alone, go to the mall alone, do the grocery alone.
Its more painful taking care of Anevay alone. I have a hard time when its time that I wanted to turn to him for help and he is not there at my side.
Things have change. Good thing I have Anevay. Good thing I have Nanay and Tatay. Good thing we have what you call TECHNOLOGY. Good thing that I can look forward to next year and think that we will be together again. Good thing we have God in our lives.
What Mahal have done is a selfless act. An act that would bring brighter future for our family. It is hard but it is our choice. And I know God will help us along the way.
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