I am terribly dissapointed.I have not seen nor envisioned that you have such a thinking. You wanted everybody to believe what you are saying is right because everything you know is factual because you based them on facts.
And you are relegating my opinions to pride, tantrums and whatever word you can come up that states that my thoughts are not that important.
And I thought you are open minded ? I was wrong. You wanted to believe what you wanted to believe and you put more value to the thinking of other people than just me. Plain me.
I am so wrong. And very much dismayed. How can I work with someone who never values my value. Who never accepts the idea of people who somehow contradicts his idea ?
As i said, we are two different people. Coming from two different background. Your facts are different from my facts. But this does not make my facts nor your facts wrong. But what you are trying to say is that my facts are wrong. Which I also am having a problem dealing with.
It would have been easier for me if you accept some of my points. But unfortunately, I end up being ridiculed and laugh at.
I wanted to weep. Weep out loud just to released what I am feeling right now.
Ang kitid ng utak mo. Siguro un din ang sinasabi mo sa kin. But ganun talaga pananaw ko sa buhay.
I was brought up and raised by a closed family. A family who has pride and dignity. I am not allowed to beg even if it means I would have to skip some essential needs for my life. I was taught to give but never expect anything in return. I grow up feeling a little bit shy when someone gave me something or have given a favor. Nor would I asked for help even if I need it. I grow up independent. I am much of a giver but never a taker.
Call it pride. Call it whatever you like. But I hope you understand my point.
Today, I do not know what else is instore for me. That I am starting to question my past.
There are few issues that has not been resolved. And those issues keep haunting me. Believe it or not at this moment, I am wishing that I could turn back time.
Sorry Lord, if this sounds ungrateful. But that is what I am feeling right now. Please help me.
I am so stress out.
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