Frustrated.Disappointed.
That is what i am feeling right now. Not only for me but a lot of people especially those who are closely working with me.
Yes. Sometimes not all the things you have asked for will be granted yet there are still things that you consider and would end up disappointing you.
Last year have been one of the best year in my life. After lupus.
For most of the years I spent there are is a day in that year that would mirror my accomplishments. For example, for one school year, come March I would be receiving medals. Yes, medals with S. Because I am not contented with only one. I wanted more that one. So I study hard.
When I graduated and have a job, I worked harder because I wanted recognition. That is my way of living. I wanted my life to be full of accomplishments. At the end of the year when the target is met I am happy. But I can be happier. I wanted commendations and awards. Yet, I was not able to show what I am made off because lupus have stopped me. Even if I have lupus I received one recognition award for a month.
One of my dream was not given to me because I have LUPUS. But having LUPUS has showed me that like moviestar you are good as your last movie. I strived to get rid of the scorns of LUPUS. Was able to survived and get back on track.
I got back with a VENGEANCE. Last year, I was able to accomplished A LOT. At the end of the year I received an award. I was expecting to received a performance bonus because that was what my boss in BIGBLUE told me. But now, its already mid year I have not received any. Last May, I received yet another award. This time from groups outside the country. Its from the Asia Pacific group. Now, I am expecting another bonus. Which up until now did not materialize.
Now, July is around the corner. So, its increase month for us. But unfortunately I heard some not so good news. And with that news comes so many excuses and unacceptable reasons.
Damn! After burning your ass off and pleasing some not so deserving people this is what you only got.
Hmmm….
Lets come and see what is instore.
I will continue this once the concerned authority talked to me.
I do not like to assume.
Leave a comment