dramas of my life

One of my most treasured desire. Ours. Hubby and I.Even if Dr. I have warned me that getting preggy is RISKY and COSTLY.

RISKY because of my condition. The diseases I am plagued. LUPUS, PULMONARY EMBOLISM and ENDOMETRIA. Risky because coumadin has 100% side effect to the baby. Unexpected pregnancy might create abnormalities to the unborn. I should be off coumadin for six months before conceiving. And if I conceived and its labor time, a blood clot might reoccur. Which can lead to paralysis or worst death. Both to the mother and unborn.

COSTLY because not taking coumadin means I will take heparin instead which is to be injected to me. Not sure yet if its everyday. But according to Dr. I that med cost 500. Whew! Have not gone to far to discuss it pa kaya I still dont have any infos about it. And no to forget my ENDOMETRIA which can be dissolved daw by taking up a certain medicine which cost Php 7000.

Weird! But enumerating all this possibilities now gave me chill and excitement. I know conceiving a child is difficult. I have seen what soon to be mothers have underwent for nine months till they deliver. And it don’t stop there. In fact it is just a beginning. Every mother put their life on the line just to give birth to an offspring which will become their responsibility all through their life.

Giving birth is dangerous even to normal healthy women. As some would put it ’sang paa mo nasa hukay habang nanganganak ka. Pano na lang kaya ako? Eh ung nde ako buntis paulit ulit akong naospital un pa kayang buntis ako? If i get pregnant, there might be a possibility that doctors might advise me a long ‘BEDREST’. That means, having long vacation from work or resigning (???) Which means, less income, no health benefit and an extra help at home. That also means cutting down expenses (ow men!), less techie stuff and gym time. Which boils down to one thing — SACRIFICE. But having this sacrifices won’t guarantee me a safe delivery nor normal conditions for me and the baby…it is still a gamble. There is also a possibility for neo natal lupus.

Life threatening, right? Ha! Feels so good to blurt it all out. All those fears that are inside. But would i still gamble ? The answer is a resounding YES! Even if a so called friend already discourages me…Even if my life is on the line (which Hubby is not agreement with) I would still wish to rear and bear a child. With God’s help I know everything will work out just fine.

Its what you call FAITH.

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